Hi (been a while), I’ve been intentionally watching from the sidelines these past few weeks.
I started re-engaging (lurking) a little since the AGM and neither especially want to be a worker member or don’t want to be a worker member.
I like the idea of trying to contribute again but also find it all a bit daunting.
I find tracking this forum overwhelming but don’t feel I can fairly contribute without trying to keep on top of what’s what etc.
I’m also confused by the expectations. What are the goals or roles within which to align my work? I get that this is probably simple - if I’m uploading, that’d be a role etc. but goals seem more opaque to me. Staying informed is also part of the code of conduct and so is keeping abreast of the forum trackable hours?
With the overwhelm that I find here, when I was contributing, it was like an hour or two of uploading/coordinating here and then a couple of hours tracking the forums there. It was like for every hour of work there was another hour (or more) of trying to follow and contribute to the broader culture/discussions. I’m not sure I find that very sustainable for me, or beneficial to you all either.
Maintaining regularity of contribution is/was a thing. Like, it is more beneficial for people to, e.g., upload an hour a day (or every other day etc.), rather than just a big burst of several hours but infrequently. But, to maintain even small amounts of regularity seemed to come at a cost of all the extra hours of forum-ing. There’d be an aspect of an upload (like how we handle covers) that would then lead to hours of trying to track down information, to then discover there wasn’t a clear policy, to then discover it had sort of been addressed at some point in the past, to then discover that something had changed since then so it wasn’t clear what version of approach we were working to anymore, followed by waiting on a key stakeholder to answer a clarification, to then try and corral engagement on how to move forward, and so on.
I also note, it’s not necessarily just forum-ing as there’s some other stuff like Mattermost, and a chat bubble, and GitHub, and maybe others (I think there was Keybase in play at some point, maybe still)?
I’m not saying any of the above is bad. An international, distributed, online co-op is going to be messy. It should be. It’s not a criticism, or a moan, it’s just that I don’t feel comfortable even attempting to take on worker-membership without thinking about all of this.
40 hours over 6 months is about 1.5 hours a week. Not a lot at all. But… Only 1.5 hours a week isn’t enough time to keep on top of forum-ing let alone doing any kind of specified tasks and so I don’t realistically see how I could be a worker-member without putting in more hours. Likewise, trying to keep abreast of this messy, distributed, congress of voices needs dropping in at least a couple of times a week for an hour or something each time. To then actually contribute to tasks is pushing that up.
Those aren’t huge amounts of time but, I only feel I can spare a couple of hours a week and so fitting in a bit of work and keeping on top of everything, plus having a weekly check-in, plus trying to show up to some big roadmap meetings/discussions, etc., seems beyond this available bandwidth. That also leads to, e.g., dropping out for a few weeks which before you know it becomes months (and which I feel guilty about).
Some of these things are clearly me issues. I struggle to compartmentalise a place like this, I find it hard to cherry-pick what to follow and what not to and so I try to at least skim most things. But then even that’s not so straight forward. I don’t have the capacity to engage with, e.g., the reading/discussion group around dismantling white culture right now, but at the same time feel it is super important and not something I could just ignore.
So, again, none of this intended as a criticism as such (though it is nice to get some concerns and frustrations off of my chest). I do feel, though, that it could be clearer what worker membership might actually entail. I get the policy and guidelines (and they seem fair to me), I don’t get the subtler aspects of what is needed, where, and what work is classed as work (within this context).
But maybe that’s just me (peace y’all) xxx